I know man, I dont think Ive fully accepted it either, my life has been a mess since it happened... whats keeping me from going insane is Mikes music... if we didnt hear from the band and if they went off the grid, id probably lose it... its still so hard to think about Chester and what happened... I do know this, that Ive been playing everything LP related loud and proud... the sole purpose now in my life is to keep his legacy alive by helping others.