My name is Rodrigo and I live in Brazil, I met Linkin Park 13 years ago, when I met Linkin Park I was going through a difficult phase in my life, I did not have my father around he was a very distant person. I had a brother who was a drug addict and another brother who was addicted to alcohol. My mother and I worked hard to keep the house, I have a younger sister as well who always helped to take care of her.
In this very difficult phase in my life Linkin Park was essential to support these problems. So I started to live Linkin Park, they were my biggest influence and it sure kept me on the floor. Chester has always been my greatest idol as he is to many, get to see 4 shows of Linkin Park, I participated in 1 meet. I can only say that I love Linkin Park, I'm married today, I have a great wife and we have a 5-month-old baby. I was on vacation in a very quiet inland city, where I lived most of my past when my wife told me that she saw on the tv about Chester. In the first 2 days I did not want to talk about it, I was running away from the subject, until then at one point my wife hugged me, so I cried like a child, my heart was broken, I could not understand what had happened, Suffer it.
Until this moment I do not understand and I would very much like Chester to have between us. I could realize that even Chester did not know my story, as well as many stories from other fans around the world, he is part of our story. Linkin Park and especially Chester inspired me, helped me through so many difficulties and getting to where I am today. And it hurts me so inconsolably to see it end this way. I still do not know what the reason he did it, I just know that for me to understand, accept, and go through this phase, it will be a bit difficult and time consuming. My wife helps me a lot and understands me, she helps me a lot this time. I thank God for her, for my daughter and all my family, but I suffer from it.
I understand that I do not know what he was up against, what he was thinking, and how heavy it was for him, but when I had nothing, I had only problems, Linkin Park was the only thing I had. I'm sorry for Chester, but he had a family, which at this point must suffer a lot more than I did, he had friends, he had Linkin Park, I did not know people and I do not know much about his personal life, Fans of the Whole World, Linkin Park, and His Family would help him with all the Love of our hearts. At this moment that I write these my feelings I can no longer hold the tears in my eyes, but that is what I feel and I would like to share.
RIP Chester
